and she's 17

So on Wednesday, March 28^th, was my 17^th birthday I didn’t do anything except go the Chemainus Theatre to sew… and then had Luanna, Megan and George over for dinner, we had roast beef and yorkshire pudding, and meg had never seen or eaten yorkshire pudding, so she thought it was muffins, and she was wondering why we were putting gravy on it…. It was so funny when she told us. So that day was good. And then on Friday my mum and I went to Nanaimo and I got some good stuff from Fabricland, then went to youth and Meg was like ‘we’re having a girls night at my house and were gonna go in the hot tub. Come’ so I said I couldn’t stay late cause I have to work, so I got driven home to get my tankini and then went to Meg’s… and it looked like no one was there… so with the couple of people that had to stop at there house to get there stuff went up to Meg’s room with me and no one was there… so we went to look out side to see if there already in the hot tub, but they weren’t, so we decided to look down stairs the light were off and that when I knew they were down there…. And they were, but not just the girls but like 20 other people and when I was in view everyone yelled out ‘SURPRIZE’ and ‘HAPPY BIRTHDAY’, yup they through a surprise party for me it was so much fun, we went in the hot tub, whacked the heck out of a piñata that wouldn’t brake so I ended up ripping it apart cause it wouldn’t brake, lol. Then my good friend Pye put on a magic show for me it was so good, and then he gave me his purple deck of card, yey. So Saturday I had to work but I was good, about 6 people came to see me at the same time, it was good and they Meg and Pye came to pick me up and we went and played live clue at the church that was good if it weren’t for the fact that we lost like 5 out of 9 of the games we played a clue… that’s pretty much my lovely week.

What's happening

   I feel really weird like I have half my life and the other half is getting sucked away… I have no clue why I feel like this… it’s getting so much harder each day to follow God; I’m in the middle of a spiritual battle… Luanna, Jordan and myself have started a Christian group up at the high school we meet every Thursday during lunch, this week will be our second meeting…. I’m not the only one feeling this battle… Jordan was telling me about it the other day… I’m praying that God will give us the strength to keep going.

   It’s hard for me to praise God when the thing I ask God for the most is not happening… I don’t know how much more I can take… it hurts so much to watch someone I love to go through so much pain… to see my sister get in a fight with the new youth pastor and then say she isn’t going to go to youth any more because of it… it was mostly his fault… so not one sister is in England, my dad is in so much pain 24/7, I’m so far behind in school, I’m in a battle and it’s so hard to keep fighting… I just want to give up but I know I can’t…

God please help me to stay strong

I ask that you would continue to use me

I ask that you would fill the lives of all my friends

And flood this school with you and this town too

God I ask that you would take my life, I don’t want it

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K guys i'm really bad at updating/writing on my blog.

kk lets see, well in Jan we did some filming for wilbob and myselfs movie, we were so lucky to get lots of filming with Trev be for he moved. so ya.... oh ya Kevin is now here, he's the new guy/youth pastor....... he's cool it's a bit hard trying to tell myself that he's the new youth past and Trev isn't anymore. Yup...... oh oh oh and in like 5 days is Live The Difference and i'm SOOOOO excited, like you dont even know excited. yup good times....... ya

well i dont know what to write so i'm gonna go but i promise to update more often. kk! laters all

 Hello all my dear friends. oh my gosh i've been busy, busy, busy. so now that i have a coupld minutes to write in my blog i took the opportunity.

Christmas - before i start talking about that i'll tell you about my grandparents 60th wedding anniversary. yes they have lasted 60 years together. amazing huh! that's how i wanna be when i got married, married for life. theres to many divorcing out there. ok i'll catch myself now before i go on about that. So at the anniversary there were something like 40 people, and we rented all the dishes (i didn't have to do the dishes, yey!) and there was champaign, my grandma had like a bottle to herself, it was funny, and the priest that renuded there vows, OMG he was hallairis, the way he talked i was trying so so so hard not to laugh, stace, keala, kat, kat's new boyfriend, my uncle and myself were laughing so hard. but it turned out good, my grandparents were so happy and they were so surprised. good times.

Now it's time for christmas or is it, well stace was home that was really good, i sure missed you stace, and we were so busy because of my grandparents anniversary being only like 3 or 4 days before, and then on christmas day my mum cut her finger right open, blood every were, ok not every were but all over the counter and the towel and the sink and a bit on the floor. so my mum went to the hospital and it's all good now. christmas was really good went to my grandparents, had a big feast, opened alot of presents, sew the faces of my family when they opend the presents i got then. umm so that was christmas i think, um less you want me to go on about how the true meaning of christmas is so lost and it's all about presents now.

k so after christmas stace and i went snowbording, yey i'm like a snow bording pro see  yeah i'm pro, ......... but i only got pro after i brused my tail bone, my but, and nees, sprained my anckle, my rist and skinned my nucleus, ya i was in pain the next day but i'm so up for going again, at least i have stop without falling now. Ok there was this guy that jump over my bord, that was when i was so not pro, up i fell so this random guy was like 'DONT MOVE!' and jump right oner my bord i was so scarred. it was all good.

Happy New Years! so for new year i got invited to go with megan and her family to the there grandparents cabin, on protecion island, it was so much fun, you don't need acahole to have fun, just a video camera, noise maker, a hot tube and friends. so when we had to leave to go back to the boats to go back to nanimo, It was pouring raining and megan and i had to walk, and we both didn't have jackes, smart eh! so not comes the good old garbage bags come in handy. lol yes we wore garbage bags (when i get the picture of meg and i in garbage bags i'll post it). well i really got to go now. laters

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blog quiz

so i was taking these stupid pointless quizz online cause i'm just that cool and there one that is If You Were Born In 2893...' so i took it and it turns out that my name would be

If You Were Born in 2893...

Your Name Would Be: Hana Jiro And You Would Be: A Prophet

so i was like ok cool i would be a prophet, sweet.

that's just something random